Today I woke up feeling different. I woke up feeling refreshed; Feeling like a new person. I felt confident in myself, in the day, with my life. I have never not been a morning person; I am not too much of a brat in the morning, I usually wake up with a ready-to-go attitude, and just, content. But today, today was different.
After ranting and reminiscing about my new found love for Summer and how it makes me feel, it almost forced me into a complete reflection on my life, and how I got to this point; Happy, and enjoying things I either hadn't before or things I never dreamed I liked. Life has been really good to me lately; The people in it, my beautiful surroundings, the path that I recently have redirected myself on, the bountiful amounts of love and laughs and warmth. The past few months have become pretty essential months in my life. I have learned a lot about myself; my emotions, my health, my wants and needs, who I am deep down inside and I am still learning.
With recent events, I have noticed a constant urge in myself to really dig down deep, to the core of myself and start bringing everything, the heap of me up to the surface. It isn't an easy thing, but hey, life isn't easy. I am almost 25 and I still feel like I do not fully know myself. But hey, so what! There are things that I do know, and that is what I am starting to discover and become is very comfortable and content with myself. I am feeling a lot of love towards myself, surprise for some of the things I have learned that I loved or I dreaded, and joy, lots and lots of joy.
No, I am not on some "I need to change up my life or be alone or go on some outrageous out-of-the-country trip to find myself", I am not even sure if that necessary in some cases. But if it works for you, cheers! For me, stepping back and taking a look at myself, everything inside of me that I do know and finding out things that I don't; my life, everyone in it and people to come, how indescribably blessed I am to have them all in it, how incredibly right it feels to have them in it and how happy they make me feel; and focussing on the things that 1) I am able to change 2) being content with the things that I cannot and 3) on the things that make me happy.
You know what, so what if I am 25 and still on a path to discovery. We are human. I am human. For me, I like this path that I am on right now. It feels very right. This is my essence of life. And to that, I present This cake ... this cake is for it all: The path, the people, the new discoveries, the experiences, the love, the laughs, the joy, and the comfort of knowing that I have a very beautiful, very supportive little family back at home to share it all with. Eat up!!!!!! It is absolutely deliiiiiiiish!
Chocolate Cherry Cake
6 ounces of dark chocolate bits
8 tablespoons of Earth Balance (or a stick of butter)
3/4 cup organic sugar
1/2 cup dark cocoa powder
1 teaspoon pure maple syrup
1/2 cup chopped cherries
Preheat oven at 375F. In a double broiler, melt chocolate and butter. Once melted, remove from heat and add in the sugar, eggs and maple syrup. Add dark cocoa mix, stirring until completely combined. Fold in chopped cherries. Pour into pre-greased glass 8-inch round cake pan. Bake for 30-35 minutes. Use toothpick test, I took my cake out while the middle was still somewhat 'wet'; toothpick coming out with few crumbles. It left the cake gooey, and with a 'no-frosting necessary' taste. Top it off with a few cold cherries. Enjoy!